No news about Japan

I'd really like to give you some news about Japan, but right now, all I see is black, I'm in the land I always wanted to be in, and everything is dark. I can't breathe, I can hardly eat, I really don't feel like writing anything about Japan here.

Worst timing

So I'm finally in Japan, and I feel like shit.
It's Christmas,  in Japan Christmas is the couples holiday, but I'm now officially not par of this group anymore.
I hope I can get over this shit soon or it's gonna be the worst period of my life.

2 days left

That's right, there's only 2 days left before I leave... It's kinda crazy right now with everyone trying to do something with me... my luggage are still not done, but should be finished by noon tomorrow. I'm leaving most of my stuff at a friend's house, 17 boxes (thanks Mat). There's still a bunch of stuff left around here, that I don't know if I'll bring or not... 2 luggae if more than enought when you're visiting, but when you're moving it's a whole different story.

On another note, I'll be doing some time from my old work while in Japan, so that's an unexpected income that is gonna help greatly!

plan for the next 3 days:
friday:

• last laundry and finishing of luggage packing
• last dinner with old coworkers
• trip to shop to buy some everyday stuff (shampoo, razors, etc)
• moving of last boxes/bags
• moving of furniture
• advance Christmas party with family

Saturday:

• finishing of anything that I didnt have time to finish the day before (I'm expecting some bags/box may remain)
• Jiyu&Aura's wedding

Sunday:

• get to the airport
• Leave!

I don't know if I'll post again before leaving.

Job hunt... still on...

Apparently I didn't have what it takes for this one... not too surprised, but still sucks.
I'll try again, getting something in IT would be more interesting anyway...

This is what I'm good at.

Leaving soon... sigh

I'm... a little more than 2 weeks away from my departure to Japan... and I'm not happy.
I'm probably at my lowest in years.
I'm closing on on a dream, but somehow I still can't see it, my world is darkened by that 1 thing that's going bad...
I think I could become millionaire right now and I'd still feel like shit...
And it's not that bad... I guess if you watch it from the outside, I'm not sick or anything... but I can barely gather enough motivation to breath and eat right now...
stupid brain.
I know I should stop caring about this... I know it's my big dream coming up, so why care avout something like this?
But I can't stop thinking about it, I can't sleep, everything tastes bad.
...

answer me...

Update on the apartment and job hunt.

I decided to go with an apartment, because the shared house are just too expensive for the difference in privacy and convenience. Unfortunately, I waiting too long after my first choice so it's already taken. After that I found another Interesting one, and really cheap too. So I quickly wrote to the guy to tell him I was reserving it, unfortunately, due to his slow answers, and probably to his colleagues faster answers, someone else got it first. Now I ust looking at all apartments again from scratch *sigh* It's boring and takes so much time. At least if I was there I could see them, feel the place, but doing it just from pictures and description isn't that convenient.

The job hunt however is going well. I'm at the second Interview now, so if I don't mess up I should secure it.