Thank you me from last week

So I was gonna write a post about how this is getting worse and I'm really starting to panic, I don't want to lose her...
but then I saw my last post.

Resolution

So I spoke with her about my fears, and I'm still afraid... but we'll work it out.
Whatever the fuck happen, I won't let you go.

I'm scared

I think this is the first time I really feel this way in my life.
I mean it's not the first time I am scared, but it's the first time my own personal future scares the shit out of me. The first time that every time I try to think about what will happen, I am afraid that everything will crumble and fade away.

I have something to lose now, someone I wanna keep by my side forever... and the road before me, to be able to keep her by my side is dark and filled with  obstacle and stupid laws.

I've lost loved ones before, broke relationships, but it's always been on an instant, or just because I didn't care anymore, there has never really been a time where I was scared of the passing time because it could mean the end of my happiness like that...
I'm so scared of it right now that I can barely sleep anymore...

At least there's a lot of events around here in February to help me forget about it...
oh wait ...
fuck...
Valentine's day....

Winter-Een-Mas 2012 results: Failure

I didn't clear any of my challenges.
I wasn't in the mood for gaming for most of the week.
I think the controls in Skyward sword are a fucking pain in the ass, and too gimmicky.
the only night I actually really gamed was tonight, and while I tried my best to finish touhou 11, I couldn't do it.
Fuck you Orin.

I didn't feel the magic this year.
I guess I also have more on my mind than last year.