When I think about it...

If I would not be able to love, If all I wanted was someone to fill a void. I would have had someone already... considering I turned down 2 girls in the last year...
So It must be that I actually love some people more than others... unfortunatly they all apear to be above what I'll ever be able to get.

Love... in my head

I'm falling in love with everything cute that I see, but at the same time I think the reason is... I'll never be able to love again, but I need to love, so I think I'm falling in love again and again, and that love fades away so fast anyway...

To love is to trust. I've lost my trust in humans long time ago, none of us can be trusted, so I can't love anyone.

Song & lyrics to back what I'm saying



Komm, süsser Tod (Come, Sweet Death)
Vocals: ARIANNE
Music: Hideaki Anno


I know, I know I've let you down
I've been a fool to myself
I thought that I could
live for no one else
But now through all the hurt & pain

It's time for me to respect
the ones you love
mean more than anything

So with sadness in my heart
(I) feel the best thing I could do
is end it all
and leave forever

what's done is done it feels so bad
what once was happy now is sad
I'll never love again
my world is ending

I wish that I could turn back time
cos now the guilt is all mine
can't live without
the trust from those you love
I know we can't forget the past
you can't forget love & pride
because of that, it's killin' me inside

It all returns to nothing, it all comes
tumbling down, tumbling down,
tumbling down
It all returns to nothing, I just keep
letting me down, letting me down,
letting me down

In my heart of hearts
I know that I called never love again
I've lost everything
everything
everything that matters to me, matters
in this world

I wish that I could turn back time
cos now the guilt is all mine
can't live without
the trust from those you love
I know we can't forget the past
you can't forget love & pride
because of that, it's kill'in me inside

It all returns to nothing, it just keeps
tumbling down, tumbling down,
tumbling down
It all returns to nothing, I just keep
letting me down, letting me down,
letting me down
It all returns to nothing, it just keeps
tumbling down, tumbling down,
tumbling down
It all returns to nothing, I just keep
letting me down, letting me down,
letting me down

Anime North + toit

Le toit est reparer, y leur reste a tirer les joins, peinturer et poser un nouveau plancher... tant qua moi c dla job botcher mais bon...

Anime north was CRAZY, mais shu redescendu de mon nuage plus vite que l'année passé.
On a rencontré des filles vraiment cool durant le bal, qui nous ont acompagné pendant toute la fds, was nice!



ce sont elles avec moi au millieu

J'ai deja hate a l'année prochaine, et a Otakuthon!